A weird dream
Honestly speaking, I really envy those who can write and know how to express their feelings.
Anyway, today I've successfully forced myself to wake up at 9am. Had my breakfast at Macdonald's and did my homework there until 2pm. Then I went off.
I've finally finished downloading the movies for my Chinese Literature assignments, 'The Matrix' and 'Farewell My Concubine'(《霸王别姬》). The downloading speed really 'amazed' me, it took me 2 days to download them.
Got flute lesson at 7, so got to pratice later on. Now I think myself as an irresponsible learner. I've been slacking and I haven't even make a single pratise within the last 3 weeks. No wonder I'm progressing much slower than the rest of the students in my flute class.
Lemon Tree
I'm sitting here in a boring room,
It's just another rainy Tuesday afternoon.
I'm wasting my time,
I've got nothing to do.
Indeed, I'm a sucker.
It's just another rainy Tuesday afternoon.
I'm wasting my time,
I've got nothing to do.
Indeed, I'm a sucker.
温暖，仅只八分钟
花了一夜的时间读完夏茗悠的《八分钟的温暖》，然后发现自己几近疯狂地喜欢上她的作品。
也不止一次被那温暖却又带着浅浅忧伤的文字所感动。
字字句句，就像初冬雪白的雾霭，始终萦绕在心中的某个角落。仿佛那带给我的是一种强烈的震撼, 心里某个角落被深深触动......
《八分钟的温暖》经典语录
[一] 该怎么去形容自己身处的这个世界呢？
无论多么漫长的时光都只是一场冗长的闭幕式，俏皮的序曲与轻松的过程都不知所踪。
就像夕阳在暮霭中所作的盛大告别，炫目如斯，但不管是渐渐从暗红霞光后脱颖而出的冷蓝色天空，还是明显越来越占上风的萦绕周身的凉意，都在揭示这场告别式海市蜃楼的本质。哪怕是能以光年丈量的欢愉，也只是广角镜拉扯营造的幻觉而已。
应该就是这样吧。
每次稍一开怀，心里就掠过惶惶不安。
为了无视这不安，所以要更努力地微笑。
[二]
你往与她相反的方向走出的距离那么漫长。
漫长得似乎已经回不去了。
中间的广袤地带，时光在黑暗中交错成荒芜的坟场。
可是，却总有那样看不见摸不着的纤细丝线维系着你和她的关联。
[三]
我不知道你一个人在黑夜里走过了怎样冗长又单调的路程。
我怎么也想不到重逢会让所有人遍体鳞伤。
巨大的树木在我们面前投下大片大片歹毒的阴影。
请告诉我，什么时候才能走出这片黑色森林，重新找到……
找到从亿万光年外历尽千辛万苦来到我们身边的，温暖而美好的光线。
[四]
即使最初将他和你限定在这种身份里的维系已经早不存在，也还能倚仗惯性按照恒定轨道运行下去。
按照恒定轨迹往前走。已经走过那么漫长的距离。
漫长得转身都回望不见最初的原点。漫长得好像再也回不去了。
中间的广袤地带，时光在黑暗中交错成荒芜的坟场。
可是，却总有那样看不见摸不着的纤细丝线维系着你和她的关联。
[五]
心脏里好像有什么血液之外的液体渗了进去，酸的或者咸的，灰的或者白的，纯净的或者混合的……
把原有的空间全部涨满了。
凝滞在几步外的树影纵横交错如掌心的曲线，风吹过时就变得含混杂乱，失去了原有的姿态。
[六]
未来还是要继续前行的，哪怕你的身影已经被抛向远远的后面，缩小成一个卑微的黑点，
又抽象成一条寂寞的地平线。
天与地，原本在地平线的尽头一分为二，如今因为雨水的作用连成一体。
天与地，像黑与白一样界线分明。
厚重的积雨云层上有我们无法感知的阳光。
[七]
这个世界本来就一分为二，光线所及的区域与光线未及的区域。
当我走进阴影里去领奖时，你正作为等待发言的体育部长站在楼梯上的阳光里，
擦肩的一瞬间我竟愚蠢地以为那些光线是为我存在，纵情享受了片刻温暖。
无论是在真实还是虚构的世界，谁的眼睛都不会发生偏差——
漂亮的，聪明的，光彩照人的我。
平凡的，普通的，看似单纯的你。
可是……
夕夜缓慢抬起眼睑，看向颜泽，摇了摇头，丧失血色的嘴唇一张一合：“没事。”
面对你的时候，我的心理，说出来谁也不会相信。
[八]
L-ether— —《时间》
秋天的落叶铺满了那条街
斜阳下 你和她 美丽的画面
曾经你微笑总绵延不绝
无限的体贴 给我 无尽的一切
曾经说 爱我如灯不灭
如今再见 那份温柔对她在重演
曾经说 爱我一生不变
此去经年 诺言像风筝断线
许多年 什么都改变
声音在耳边 怎能假装听不见
曾经快乐无限
为什么现在却视而不见
借口无份无缘
世上没有永恒誓言
…… ……
[九]
—— 如果太阳此刻熄灭光芒，地球上的人要八分钟后才知道。
—— 太阳熄灭光芒后的这八分钟，会和往常一样温暖。直到真正的黑暗降临那一刻，所有人都不会觉察这只是虚幻的温暖。
对于一部分人来说。
也许是略带恐怖色彩的感伤话题。
[十]
在你开始觉察的时候，在你开始留恋的时候，在你开始懂得它多么重要的时候。
它早就离开了。
[十一]
你所感受到的全部温暖，都只是一场冗长的闭幕式，一段愉悦的安可曲。
夕阳在暮霭中所作的盛大告别，炫目如斯。
[十二]
冷蓝色的天空渐渐从暗红霞光后脱颖而出，萦绕周身的凉意越来越占上风，哪怕是能以光年丈量的欢愉，也只是广角镜拉扯营造的幻觉而已。
一切结束在开始之前
[十三]
如果说贺新凉的世界里，黑的反面是绝对的白，那么季霄的世界就是被黑白之间广袤的灰色地带覆盖的。含混。模糊。不确定。不清晰。让人无法轻松。
[十四]
因为心里装着一个固有轮廓，所以你不会明白，最终随岁月荏苒消失无踪的是哪个字？而哪个字又深深地埋藏在了心里？
在结局轰然而至前，你没能明白。
[十五]
谢谢你一直没有向我揭示这幕反转剧。
First of all, "Happy Birthday Shannon!", although you may not see it.
I still remembered Shannon's mother's thought provoking words now. I should be glad for what I have and appreciate them. There are so many less fornutated people and they have such a small stand in this world. So I shall not complain about my life being such a miserable one, and cherish what I have because I don't want to be regretful if they are all gone one day.
I still remembered Shannon's mother's thought provoking words now. I should be glad for what I have and appreciate them. There are so many less fornutated people and they have such a small stand in this world. So I shall not complain about my life being such a miserable one, and cherish what I have because I don't want to be regretful if they are all gone one day.
It's the begining of a new journey
I've just come back from S.Korea. It was such an enjoyable trip and I'm sure that I'll be going back again! The streets are filled with hot guys and sexy girls! I just love everything there, especailly their Kimchi~
I'll be going back to school tomorrow, to attend the last spec course lesson before my actual spec course starts on Tuesday.
Apparently I'll be busy for the whole week , after my spec course I have to go for project meeting. I need to rush my English script and my Geography project so that I can go back to China next week. I think I'm having a time crisis now... sigh...
I'll be going back to school tomorrow, to attend the last spec course lesson before my actual spec course starts on Tuesday.
Apparently I'll be busy for the whole week , after my spec course I have to go for project meeting. I need to rush my English script and my Geography project so that I can go back to China next week. I think I'm having a time crisis now... sigh...
make love with a rat to get a cat
It makes me wonder if it is worthwhile or not.
I started to doubt if I still have that confidence and faith within myself.
Now disappointment is my companion.
Changeling
I've decided to change a little bit of myself, like taking things positively and etc. I've decided not to be bothered by what other people have said about me. I am whom I chose to be, not anyone else. I chose to ignore those who aren't pleased with me, it's not becuse I'm compromised, but just learning how to forgive.
But first of all, I've something to rant up before my change, and here it goes:
"Fuck My Life!" Why are so many things happening at the same time!?
Why nobody udersmetands me? Why did you judge the book by it's cover? You didn't even read the book, did you?
And you belived her, those groteaque distortions of truth? WTF! You made me think that my life's totally a mess! And 'YOU' too! I've tolerated, but what did you do? You just don't seem to make my life easy. You're so great! You've made him to believe you.
So you think I'm very unappreciative? Well, Bravo! You're totally correct!
You just don't seem to know me well, and I'll make you know me better now. Yes, I'm an unappreciative person, so don't take things for granted!
Now I've to fight for my way and right. I'm telling you now that I'm not going to tolerate you all anymore.
Don't think that I'll not make it without you all. I'm independent and I don't need you anymore. I'll prove you that I can live without you all. Just wait and see!
But first of all, I've something to rant up before my change, and here it goes:
"Fuck My Life!" Why are so many things happening at the same time!?
Why nobody udersmetands me? Why did you judge the book by it's cover? You didn't even read the book, did you?
And you belived her, those groteaque distortions of truth? WTF! You made me think that my life's totally a mess! And 'YOU' too! I've tolerated, but what did you do? You just don't seem to make my life easy. You're so great! You've made him to believe you.
So you think I'm very unappreciative? Well, Bravo! You're totally correct!
You just don't seem to know me well, and I'll make you know me better now. Yes, I'm an unappreciative person, so don't take things for granted!
Now I've to fight for my way and right. I'm telling you now that I'm not going to tolerate you all anymore.
Don't think that I'll not make it without you all. I'm independent and I don't need you anymore. I'll prove you that I can live without you all. Just wait and see!
Such A Wonderful Day
I had a shopping spree with my dearest pal today :).
Ironically, she and I have known each other for almost three years and it was our first time going on a shopping together.
Anyway it was a pretty good time for me. I bought a pair of new shoes, after much attempts at trying the shoes, and I finally made up my mind on which one I should buy. They were black again, I can't believe that my love for black bordered on obsession. I got a pair of denim skirt, it was my first time buying such kind of skirt and it cost me $33! Well, I would have expected it to be expansive, the cost of living has increased nowadays, so there should be no suprise at the cost of the skirt. That was why I did't have a single spasm of hesitation when buying the skirt.
We bumped into some of our classmates at the shopping centre and had a little chat. When we decided to go home at around 5pm and our dearest HX told me that she was going to the toilet, so I accompanied her to the washroom. While on the way back to the MRT station, I spotted this lovely dress and I felt a strong desire of wanting it. So I spent again. I managed to pursuade HX to get one too(cuz they said it was 2 for $40). So we both had one of the same dress. She got the green one and I took the orange one. Colorful right? Although I was overwhelmed by the dress, somehow I still felt my hert bleed when I paid for the dress. Afterwards I went to Popular to get myself some colour pens and a note pad. And I couldn't believe that I'd spent almost a hundred dollars! Such a spendthrift I am!
I shall never spend again! I promise! (Cross my heart!)
Ironically, she and I have known each other for almost three years and it was our first time going on a shopping together.
Anyway it was a pretty good time for me. I bought a pair of new shoes, after much attempts at trying the shoes, and I finally made up my mind on which one I should buy. They were black again, I can't believe that my love for black bordered on obsession. I got a pair of denim skirt, it was my first time buying such kind of skirt and it cost me $33! Well, I would have expected it to be expansive, the cost of living has increased nowadays, so there should be no suprise at the cost of the skirt. That was why I did't have a single spasm of hesitation when buying the skirt.
We bumped into some of our classmates at the shopping centre and had a little chat. When we decided to go home at around 5pm and our dearest HX told me that she was going to the toilet, so I accompanied her to the washroom. While on the way back to the MRT station, I spotted this lovely dress and I felt a strong desire of wanting it. So I spent again. I managed to pursuade HX to get one too(cuz they said it was 2 for $40). So we both had one of the same dress. She got the green one and I took the orange one. Colorful right? Although I was overwhelmed by the dress, somehow I still felt my hert bleed when I paid for the dress. Afterwards I went to Popular to get myself some colour pens and a note pad. And I couldn't believe that I'd spent almost a hundred dollars! Such a spendthrift I am!
I shall never spend again! I promise! (Cross my heart!)
Let it go with the wind
I've always wondered, if one could find one's identity in life?
But first of all, what does life mean? The process of approching to death from the day we were born? When talking about life, I'll always associate it with sufferings, pains and confusions. Is that all life has given to us? Sure not! Of course I'm not saying that life's full of sufferings. Well, life is something abstract, we can't give it a clear definition. I don't deny that there are still something good about life. Love, passions, ambitions and suchlike. It's just that we suffer more than we enjoy. At least in my opinion.
Maybe you'll think that I"m too pessimistic about life. Or maybe I just don't get used to the real world that I'm living in, maybe I've been living in my little utopia that's is full of happiness and enjoyment.
If it really is, then I think I got to do something about it.
Afterall, maybe I'll still be wondering about life, just like how I always do.
But first of all, what does life mean? The process of approching to death from the day we were born? When talking about life, I'll always associate it with sufferings, pains and confusions. Is that all life has given to us? Sure not! Of course I'm not saying that life's full of sufferings. Well, life is something abstract, we can't give it a clear definition. I don't deny that there are still something good about life. Love, passions, ambitions and suchlike. It's just that we suffer more than we enjoy. At least in my opinion.
Maybe you'll think that I"m too pessimistic about life. Or maybe I just don't get used to the real world that I'm living in, maybe I've been living in my little utopia that's is full of happiness and enjoyment.
If it really is, then I think I got to do something about it.
Afterall, maybe I'll still be wondering about life, just like how I always do.
Why am I waking up so early in the morning? It's HOLIDAY now!
I still remember how reluctant I was to get out of my bed during school days...
So, like yesterday, I woke up at 8.30 and rushed to toilet to pee... and I found that my father had already left for Vietnam. Sigh... I'd promised to send him to the airport, but I think I overslept? So, I was just thinking If I wanted to go to the library, It has always been a conducive environment for doing homework. Maybe I will go there 5 or 10 minutes early, you just don't know how difficult it is to find a table, as you'll find all the tables being occupied. If you're lucky, you might find someone that are willing to share the table with you...
So, get the snatch stated!
I still remember how reluctant I was to get out of my bed during school days...
So, like yesterday, I woke up at 8.30 and rushed to toilet to pee... and I found that my father had already left for Vietnam. Sigh... I'd promised to send him to the airport, but I think I overslept? So, I was just thinking If I wanted to go to the library, It has always been a conducive environment for doing homework. Maybe I will go there 5 or 10 minutes early, you just don't know how difficult it is to find a table, as you'll find all the tables being occupied. If you're lucky, you might find someone that are willing to share the table with you...
So, get the snatch stated!
Life's a paradise when you could do whatever you like. Slouching on the sofa, reading your farvourite book, or listening to those POP music and singing like no one's business.
Anyway, there's my very first English tuition lesson at 10am, and my father woke me up at 8.30, telling me that it was already 9.30. So i woke up 1 and 1/2 hours earlier. I had an awesome breakfast, though it was just a bowl of oat cooked by my Dad. After having my breakfast, I had my bedroom tidied up, cuz i probably didn't want my tuition teacher to be amazed by the mess in my room :).
And so I was blogging 30mins before my lesson, and then I received my teacher's message, telling me that she had to postpone the lesson to some other day cuz she was sick. So does that mean I will have the entire morning to blog? Well, since the lesson's cancelled, I shall start doing my homework then.
Anyway, there's my very first English tuition lesson at 10am, and my father woke me up at 8.30, telling me that it was already 9.30. So i woke up 1 and 1/2 hours earlier. I had an awesome breakfast, though it was just a bowl of oat cooked by my Dad. After having my breakfast, I had my bedroom tidied up, cuz i probably didn't want my tuition teacher to be amazed by the mess in my room :).
And so I was blogging 30mins before my lesson, and then I received my teacher's message, telling me that she had to postpone the lesson to some other day cuz she was sick. So does that mean I will have the entire morning to blog? Well, since the lesson's cancelled, I shall start doing my homework then.
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